When we first arrived, we definitely had a "holy crap, how are we ever going to do this" moment. But, by the end we actually were starting to have the opposite feeling. We were relieved and realizing that this was something that could be done. Yes, it's a lot of work, and yes, sometimes you might get peed on or you might spend 10 minutes changing the diaper only to find that he's pooped again. But when that baby looks into your eyes putting his trust in you that you will take care of him and you look back and see innocence in its purest form, you realize that is what life is all about. You wonder what must be going through his sweet little head, and you realize that you would do anything in the world to keep this child from having one moment of pain. To say that I was overcome with emotion would probably be an understatement.
This baby in particular was so sweet and calm, and when he was fed and changed, he was content and ready to see and be seen. With each interaction I fell more and more in love with him. I'm sure my pregnancy hormones have a little to do with this overwhelming emotional attachment, but it was there nonetheless, and I am a little happier for having it.
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